lovenhardt1 (lovenhardt1) wrote,

A Primal Right.

A Primal Right.
Author: lovenhardt1

Word Count: ~58.000. This chapter 4.319
Pairing: Adam/Tommy (Werewolf).
Warnings: Sexual content, minor character death.
Rating: NC17
Disclaimers: The people you might recognize in here are NOT mine. I'm not making any profit, I'm only doing this for fun. There is no way this ever happened and so on. Oh…. And werewolves don’t exist either…. Sowry.

Beta:thrace_adams. Thank you sweetie for all your help, I love you so much for it! All your hard work made mine shine.
Type: Werewolf AU. Romance with just enough angst to make it good.
A/N: This fic is written for my dear friend dkymekare because she loves wolves above.

I had some really incredible cheerleaders on this fic!!! I love you all dearly! And I couldn’t have done it without you! So THANK YOU!!!

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Summary: You know that feeling of being in control? Of knowing what happens next? You’ve got it all worked out, knows it’ll be hard work but worth it. You’re so focused on carefully laid plans that you kinda forgot about you…. but then something or someone comes along and changes everything. Suddenly you’re not even in charge of your own heart anymore. Yeah. That’s what happened to me.

Sit down and let me tell you a story… you might want to put your legs up and get comfortable, we’ll be here for a while.

It all began a day I was letting my wolf have some fun in the woods…

Adam and I finally found our way out of the bedroom and ordered food form one of the café’s in the area.  The food was good but the company was perfect. We were cleaning up the kitchen when my phone rang.  Adam glanced at me and asked if I wanted some privacy. I shook my head answering the phone. “Hey Mia. What’s up?”

“Sasha came back from the woods this morning. I guess Darren meant business when he said that I should look out.” She sounded dead serious and fear instantly pooled in my stomach.

“What?! Is she okay? Are you getting threats?”

My voice was high pitched and Adam stopped putting the dishes in the washer and looked at me worriedly.

“She is fine, just a little pissed.”  Mia said and inhaled sharply.

I held up a hand to show Adam that things were okay and he smiled a little smile that didn’t reach his eyes. Mia continued and I concentrated on her words instead of Adam.

“Not yet, but we’re being watched. So it is just a matter of time before it becomes real. God I’m fuming right now. How dare he?””

“Easy sweetie. We’ll figure it out together. I’ll come home now.”

“Home? Where are you?”

“Adam’s house.” I heard the love shine through in my own voice and I wondered if Mia would tease me mercilessly.

“Still?” Her tone made me blush deeply and I wandered into Adam’s living room and flopped down on his couch. I ran my hand over my eyes and up through my hair. I thought about the night before and I desperately wanted to share the news with Mia. But on the other hand it was so personal and beautiful that I didn’t want to reveal just how we mated.

“Yeah, um we kinda, nevermind you’ll find out when I get home.” I mumbled half embarrassed half proud out of my fucking mind.

“Shit, you mated didn’t you?” She asked in a pondering tone and I could just imagine the frown on her face.

“Yeah, yeah, we did.”

“Aww Tommy. I’m happy for you but your mom is going to be so pissed at you.” She laughed.

“Why? It’s not like it was unexpected.”

“You cheated her out of a ceremony. She’s your mom Tommy! Duh!”

“Oh. She’ll get a wedding instead at some point.” I snickered and I swear I could hear her shake her head in that ‘boys suck’ way that was so typical for her.

“So how does it feel?” she asked and I picked at some imaginary lint on my t-shirt, taking my time before answering.

“It’s not that easy to put into words. I feel him all the time in my heart, my soul. You know the wolf way?  But so much stronger, and I know every emotion in him without having to rely on my senses. I just know."

“Is it what you thought it would be?”

“No not at all, it is so much better. He is my world Mia. I mean before Adam everything was about the pack, but now, the pack, even my life wouldn’t matter without him. It's scary and it’s wonderful.”

“And Adam? How does this make him feel? I hope he's not too overwhelmed by this?”

“Adam is happy, very happy, bubbly happy. He says he can feel me the same way. That he thinks I passed on some wolf senses to him. At first it just made me all gooey and happy but I woke up to him staring at me and telling me that he knew I would wake up before I even stirred. How the actual fuck is that possible when I haven’t changed him?”


I shot a glance at the door between the kitchen and the living room and lowered my voice a little. I wasn’t trying to keep things secret from Adam, but I didn’t need to motivate his wishes on becoming a wolf. He had plenty of those on his own. And I needed Mia’s thoughts on what’s been tumbling around in my head for hours.

“Yeah but it got me thinking. He already had my blood in him from the day we saved him from the bear, and I claimed him last night. I bit him and my body took what it needed from his blood to connect us physically and mentally. We mated Mia.”

“Yeah?” I could hear in her voice that she wasn't connecting the dots yet and it made me doubt the validity of what I was thinking.

“I think," I paused, swallowing hard. "I think I might have started a wolf change in him.”

Mia was quiet for a long time and I could hear her pacing the floor and I smiled a little when I visualized her pinching the bridge of her nose with her fingers.  Adam does the exact same thing, it’s adorable.

“Can you sense a wolf in him?”

“No, but we haven’t mixed blood yet. He has mine in him and the other way around. But I didn’t bleed last night. I have a feeling I better  be very careful not to get our blood mixed by accident now. I really believe that if we do then he’ll change.”

“I think you’re right about that. Well actually I don’t think you’ll have to mix blood. I think it’ll be enough if he gets anymore of yours. You seriously don’t want that?” She made a good point, my blood could very easily be enough. Damn it.

“Mia.” I sighed, she should understand my reluctance. She came from the same beliefs about our lives as wolves as I did.

“Yeah, okay, I know why you feel that way.”

“Thank you. We’ll come home now, is Mike there?”

She didn’t answer right away which led me to believe that he was there but she didn’t want to share him with me. The knowledge made my heart swell. Damn my chest didn’t feel big enough.

“Yes he is, why?” suspicion had snuck into her voice and I winched a bit.

“I think I need to talk to him when we get there. He needs to tell me what the hell it is he keeps thinking I’ll figure out on my own. If Darren is on the warpath then it isn’t the time for mind games, so Mike just has to fess up.

“Fuck Tommy. It is not that hard.” She groaned and I felt slightly embarrassed that I hadn’t figured it out yet.

“No? Because it sure puzzles me.”

“Okay here's a clue Einstein. Does your wolf want to argue with Adam or please him? Is your wolf submitting or not? And when you’re done thinking about that, then think a little about why it is that Mike believes he’ll be a good wolf. I know this is going to hit you hard, but I do not want you to take it out on my boyfriend Tommy.”

I let her words wash over me and I understood everything so clearly that it freaked me out that I hadn’t seen it before. It all made sense to me now. Why my wolf wanted to please and ease Adam. Why it didn’t snarl and growl when I felt like it should bare its teeth. Adam was alpha all the way through, and he was so strong as a human that my wolf instinctively recognized him as superior. I let out a strangled throaty noise and my head was a mess. How the fuck did I miss that? And why would my mate, the one created for me, be stronger than me? A born alpha. It made absolutely no sense. I didn’t know what the hell I was supposed to say to Mia.

“Um, okay, yeah, I got it.  We’ll be back soon.”

She sighed a little and her voice was filled with such patience that I wanted to kick her ass into the next century. “Take your time baby, no real rush yet.  Get your shit straightened out before you get here. Okay? I love you, Tommy.”

“Yeah okay. I love you too.” I thumbed the phone call off and for a while I just sat there staring into nothingness. Fuck, fuck, fuckity fuck. This was all kinds of bad. If Adam really wanted to change he would be able to manipulate me into it. He just had to keep asking for it because I wouldn’t be able to deny him anything in the long run. And if he did he turn wolf, then we would have to fight for dominance because there's no room in one pack for two strong headed alphas unless they're mated as alphas, like Mia and I was intended to. Damn it. I needed some time to myself, to figure this out.

But as things went down I didn’t get any. A minute later Adam was looking at me from the doorframe he was leaning against. He seemed concerned and he pushed off the doorframe when we locked eyes. He went over and knelt down in front of me, cradling my face, caressing me softly. “You’re worried about Mia.”

I was a bit relieved that he jumped to that conclusion right away, and yeah I was worried about Mia, a lot actually, but right then I was mostly worried about us and where the hell we would end up as mates if we had to fight for dominance. It scared the hell out of me.

“Yeah. Darren weren’t kidding, not that I thought he would be, but shit just got real.”

“Let’s go then.” He stood up and held out a hand, ready to haul my ass off the couch and run head first into a fight. Again I got hit with my own naivety, how did I not see his alpha traits? I shook my head in rejection.

“Um, no. I think I need - ”

Adam tilted his head and gave me an inquisitive look, one that made me feel like he wanted to open my head up and look inside to figure me out.

“What Tommy?” he asked and despite the way he looked at me his voice was just as patient as Mia’s had been and it pissed me off. I felt like I was being treated like a child.

“Nothing. Time, I need some time to myself!” Harsh words and Adam blinked in confusion but then a determined glint sparked in his eyes and I knew I had to watch it or I would be digging my own grave.

“Why? Tell me! I want to help.” The tone in his voice was soft and encouraging but underneath it was steel and my wolf responded to it immediately.

“Fuck.” I put my head in my hands, hiding, more from myself than him to be honest.

“Tommy.” I fought the ‘look at me’ demand in his voice and lost, I raised my head and he caught my gaze in his.

“Why didn’t I see this before? How fucking blind am I? Not to mention naïve.  Jesus.” I mumbled to myself.

“What are you talking about?”

We looked at each other for a long time both searching the other's eyes but for very different reasons.

“Why do you want to become a wolf Adam?” I asked quietly.

He narrowed his eyes, clearly wondering where I was going with this. “I told you, I want to take care of you, to protect you and I want to share every aspect of your life. I want to be a wolf because I love you. It is that simple.”

I wanted to cry and my fucking wolf wanted to revel in the false safety his tone of voice promised. For once I didn’t trust my wolf and I fought him on this. There was nothing simple in that, nothing.

“Yeah you told me. God.”

I could tell from the look on Adam's face that I was wearing his patience thin, stretching it to the breaking point. And damn it if I didn't want to test the waters and pull a little more just to see what I could get away with, not only from Adam but from my wolf too. Talk about playing with fire.

“Why is this a bad thing?” he was still standing tall above me.

It made me feel small and I resented that. 

“Because being a wolf isn’t all that romantic. We live in a society hidden in the human civilization. We have to obey the human laws and the wolves’ laws too. We’re ruled by an old fashioned council that sees a female alpha as weak and tries to steal her pack to enlarge their own power base. We don’t have democracy, so if your alpha isn’t kind or listens to you then you’ll never know what it means to have your own opinions. Or worse you’ll never find the respect for your human traits that equality means for you or the wolf next to you. I’m not saying that wolves are slaves because they’re not, but they aren’t free either.  Do you really want to give away your freedom??”

Adam inhaled deeply getting ready to defend his wishes but I didn’t give him the chance. This was my chance to get him to give up on the idea of life as a Were, to keep us safe and together.

“Not to mention that we’re kinda slaves to the moon. Once a month we have no choice in what we want to do with our time. How the hell would you work that into your dream of touring the world and singing your face off?  This," I waved my hand around me, "my life, isn’t a fucking fairy-tale. I mean I love my wolf.  He’s a part of me, I wouldn’t be without him, but I was born this way. This is what comes natural to me. And I don’t want to live like wolves. I want to change things. I fucking want Mia and her pack to feel safe!”

“But if I was a wolf I could help you.” He argued.

“Help me?” I snorted arrogantly.

Adam shot me a hurt and confused look that made my stomach twist and my wolf snarl at me as he fought to take control.

“Yeah, we would be stronger together.” Adam started to walk around, the frustration rolling off him in waves and my wolf wanted nothing more than to please him.

“Together?” I mocked knowing that it was only a matter of time before I went too far and I really should be backing off. I didn’t though.

“Adam, I never wanted to be an alpha, but I accepted that it would be my place in life when the time comes. And no matter what my desires are, I want what is best for my pack. And that’s me! I know them, I love them. I respect them.” I emphasized my words with a rise of eyebrows in an attempt to get him to argue against that point.

“I know that.”

“Then what makes you think it would be a good idea to change? To become a wolf?”

Adam stopped his pacing and threw his hands in the air. “Because I love you, because this is your life and I want to be here for you. I’m strong, Tommy, body and soul; I’ll manage in the wolf world too. Why don’t you have that faith in me?”

“Oh, I know you will, you’ll do more than manage. You’ll overrule me. You already make my wolf want to roll over and let you take control.”

He blinked and stared at me for a second before going back to me, he fell to his knees and took my hands into his, but there was nothing but alpha written all over his gesture.

“Maybe that’s not a bad thing. I like taking charge and I’m good at it.”

“And why wouldn’t that be a bad thing Adam? To me as an alpha?”

He ran his thumbs over my pulse points, soothing me, my wolf calmed and stopped fighting me. I took advantage of the moment and prepared myself for the next time the wolf would want to show its belly to Adam.

“Because I stand for the same things as you. Because you basically doesn’t want to be alpha. Because I don't back down from a challenge. How many reasons do you need?”

“And I do?” I spat out. Making my wolf pissed right away again. It was getting harder and harder to ignore his begging for the right to just roll over and let Adam take what he so clearly wanted.

“Do you even remember me throwing myself into a fight with a bear to save your ass?” it was a punch way below the belt, I knew that, but damn it I had to make him see that we would be better off if he stayed human. And I had to do it before I lost the fight with my wolf. This was taking everything I had out of me.

“And you were magnificent baby! And you want everybody to feel good and be happy all the time and you go out of your way to make it happen. Damn it you even fight your urge to cuddle me when Trent is near even though I know it hurts you when you can’t touch me like that. I’m not saying you wouldn’t be an awesome beta. You are now.”

“Oh, that makes everything okay then. So when you go on tour at some point I can take care of them?” I was yelling now and I had to move around. The wolf was fighting me even harder than Adam and he clawed and growled at me, making me hurt. I guess it was only fair since I was probably causing him the same amount of pain.

“Oh no! You’re going with me if I ever get to have that experience.  That’s not up for debate; I can’t be that far apart from you. And maybe we could make some sort of deal with Mia’s pack. I don’t know so that when we’re away then Mia is the one looking after everybody.”

“I think that’s exactly what Mom and Mike are thinking. That you could handle both packs. They just don’t seem to understand that I want the best for you and that being a wolf isn’t it. You know nothing about being in a pack. You could die in a fight with another alpha. That alpha could even be me. I can’t let that happen. I won’t. I’ll fight you all the way on this.”

“And you couldn’t get hurt or die? Tommy, I want to be a wolf. I need to be able to protect you, and please don’t think you’re the only wolf that could make it happen. ‘Cause you’re not!”

“You wouldn’t!” I was horrified. Ice cold terror raced through my veins, making me shake all over. Even my wolf agreed and was reacting the same way. Although, we were scared for different reasons. I knew if he really meant it, I'd never be able to stop it. The wolf in me was anxious because it desperately needed to be the one who was bound to Adam in every way. The idea of that kind of link to another wolf was breaking its heart.

“Fuck yes I would! Special bond aside and all I would. Especially if I thought I could keep you safe from harm.”

“So you would ask Mike to change you if I denied you.” I hissed.

Adam looked at me unyielding and said, "I would even ask Trent if it came to that! But I would like it to be you, Tommy. I don’t want to have that bond with anyone else. Please don’t make me,” his voice had gone tender and pleading at the end but there was still that steel underneath it all, brooking no argument.  

I felt defeated, I had fought myself into a corner and there was no way out of this. My wolf knew how close it was to getting his will that it was just a matter of time before it would be able to let Adam take what he wanted so much. It stopped fighting me and instead it nudged me in the direction it wanted. I still didn’t trust my wolf’s desires in this so I gave it one last try. If arguing didn’t work maybe begging would.

“Adam, please? Please don’t make me do this! Please don’t force me to put your life in danger. Because that might just be what happens, I think this is exactly why Darren took so much interest in you. If I let you change, he’ll go after you right away.”

Adam crossed the floor and pulled me into his arms.

“Darren doesn’t scare me. But if you get hurt defending Mia or our own pack, fuck, Tommy, I can’t even say it! It would be the end of me.”

I closed my eyes because I couldn’t keep looking at him. It hurt too much, I was losing and I knew it. The thought of Adam as an alpha wolf forced by his nature to fight me for dominance and what that would do to us as mates. I swallowed hard. It meant I could lose him.

“I’m stronger than I seem and I’m smart about fighting. I’m not a fucking damsel in distress.”

“Baby, if this is what Mike and Dia seem to think could unite the packs, then why are you so against it? You gotta know by now it's going to happen no matter what you think of it.”

“Are you willing to fight me for the alpha position?”

“What?” he pulled back a little so he could see me properly.

I sighed heavily and surrendered reluctantly.  My wolf made me bare my neck to him and dared him to break the skin there. Giving it all up for him to take.

“If you really want this, fair enough. But know you’ll have to fight me and win to become the alpha. We’ve talked about this Adam. You can’t take over a pack without winning if from another alpha. Or mate your way to it the problem is that you’re already pack. You’ll have to challenge me to earn the title.”

He stared at me, at my neck and I saw the hunger in his eyes that must have mirrored how I looked the night before. He let a thumb brush over the bruise he made there when we mated and I gasped. My wolf longing for him to take what he desired. Adam tore his eyes from my neck and took a hold of my face with both hands and bumped our foreheads together.

“This isn’t about the title dumbass. It is all about you. And I do not want to fight you but- wait! Oh my God that’s it!”


“Baby you’re not alpha yet. You’re beta to your mother. What if we do this now? What if you change me today while you’re still beta? I mean it would make sense if that’s why Darren wanted you to become alpha no matter what at the next full moon, you said it yourself. That he was too interested in me. He must have seen what Mike and your mom see. I think that you being beta at the moment is a huge stick in his wheel.  Yeah that must be it. He's counting on us making it easy on him, well we’re not going to.”

“Adam I really-”

“Change me now baby and let’s make hell hot for him.”

Adam put a finger under my chin and pushed upwards until our eyes met; slow, so fucking slow he lowered his face until our lips met. He sucked on my lips and I grabbed the back of his t-shirt, curling my hands into fists, I opened up to him and he licked into my mouth and a small whimper escaped me. This was what we were made to do, not fighting each other. We kissed and made up, literally, re-connecting and it felt like heaven.

“Bed now.” Adam said when we had to come up for air. “We can do it there, it worked yesterday.”

I tilted my head offering him my neck, driven totally by the wolf’s desire to please him. He kissed his way along the tendon up to my jawline. I pushed hard at my wolf, regaining some control as I stuttered, “Fuck. No, Adam.  We need to talk to someone else about this.”

“You know what they want.”

I pushed at him but there was no strength what so ever “Adam, please?”

“You don’t want me to take you to bed?”

“Yes, but not now.”

Adam laughed quietly but there was a dark edge to it that I couldn’t ignore any more than my wolf could. Heat pooled in my groin and he felt it, the wolf connection made it impossible to hide even if my growing erection wasn't making it obvious.

“Liar. I can feel it. You’re so turned on right now the air is full of your scent.”

I shivered when Adam’s hands ran down my sides to linger on my hips. And he smirked. Turned on or not I wasn't about to give in so easily. “Maybe, but I’m not going to let my cock make my decisions for me.”

Adam raised an eyebrow and something primal gleamed in his blue eyes making them look darker. “Then I'll make them for you,” he growled and before I knew what he was doing he'd bent down and put his shoulder against my belly, hoisted me up and was striding across the room heading toward the stairs and eventually the bedroom.

“Adam, put me the fuck down.” I cried out.


chapter 14

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