lovenhardt1 (lovenhardt1) wrote,

A Primal Right.

A Primal Right.
Author: lovenhardt1

Word Count: ~58.000. This chapter 2.923
Pairing: Adam/Tommy (Werewolf).
Warnings: Sexual content, minor character death.
Rating: NC17
Disclaimers: The people you might recognize in here are NOT mine. I'm not making any profit, I'm only doing this for fun. There is no way this ever happened and so on. Oh…. And werewolves don’t exist either…. Sowry.

Beta:thrace_adams. Thank you sweetie for all your help, I love you so much for it! All your hard work made mine shine.
Type: Werewolf AU. Romance with just enough angst to make it good.
A/N: This fic is written for my dear friend dkymekare because she loves wolves above.

I had some really incredible cheerleaders on this fic!!! I love you all dearly! And I couldn’t have done it without you! So THANK YOU!!!

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Summary: You know that feeling of being in control? Of knowing what happens next? You’ve got it all worked out, knows it’ll be hard work but worth it. You’re so focused on carefully laid plans that you kinda forgot about you…. but then something or someone comes along and changes everything. Suddenly you’re not even in charge of your own heart anymore. Yeah. That’s what happened to me.

Sit down and let me tell you a story… you might want to put your legs up and get comfortable, we’ll be here for a while.

It all began a day I was letting my wolf have some fun in the woods…

We ended up in my room with the door closed to keep the world out. Adam sprawled across my bed and I curled up next to him, my head on his chest and the sound of his heartbeat keeping me grounded.

“Are you okay baby?” Adam asked me softly and began to comb his fingers through my hair.

“Yes. I just…. He’s… yeah.”

“You're worried about him.”

“I am. What he did for us today…I asked a lot and he just gave it away. So yeah, I worry.”

Adam’s hand stilled and I looked up at him. “You. What he did for you. He made that pretty clear.” Adam is damn good at the whole poker face thing and right there he made sure to keep his face neutral, it isn’t that easy to fool a wolf though, so I had no problem picking up on the jealousy simmering under the surface.  I figured that this was probably more about the fact that I had a history with Trent, one Adam would never be a part of than about him worrying about Trent now. Still made me feel like reassuring him though. 

“You know you have nothing to worry about right? I mean, all this must be sort of hard to swallow for a human, but that fact that you’re my mate literally means that I wouldn’t be able to walk away even if I wanted to. I already tried and I failed Adam.”

“I understand that Tommy, I want an eternity with you too.”

He looked at me with such soft fondness and there was no doubt that he meant what he said, that it took me a second to remember what my point was.

“And you saw how supportive the other wolves were, even though there might be severe consequences. He’ll always be loyal to the words he spoke earlier in the living room.”

“Hmm, I think it's more like he’ll always be loyal to you. He doesn’t want me anywhere near you. But anyway, he had some really valid points and I think we need to talk about them.”

I had to smile a little. These small bits of Adam were just like precious gifts. I learned something new about him all the time. Right there, on my bed, cuddled against him I learned that when he doesn’t want to linger on a subject he’ll go all practical on you. Find a new thing to chew on. I played along.

“Uh huh. If Mia and her pack agree to all of this, which Mike doesn’t seem to think is going to be a problem and I’m starting to believe that too, then we have to figure out a way to keep her pack safe. Mia has already done so much work toward making the pack more democratic, it would kill her to see it whipped back by another alpha.”

“Couldn’t you and Mia make a new pact? Unite the packs without the mating? If you both consented?”

“Not that simple. You can win or lose a pack to a more dominant alpha; or you can unite by mating, those are the laws. But of course we can always be by her side.”

“So we need to work around that.” Adam said and shifted his weight. I moved to get closer, put a thigh between his legs and nuzzled his neck before peppering small kisses there. Adam made a small broken noise of pleasure and the arm around me tightened. I smiled happily against the soft skin below his ear.

“Hmm. Though I’m not sure there's much to work with. The laws are pretty clear.”

Adam laughed softly and poked me in my ribs. “Or maybe you’re too close to see it!”

Squirming away from that offensive finger and trying to hold back the laughter building in my chest I managed to get out, “Oh my god I’m going to have to keep you and Mike apart!”

Adam pulled me back into his arms and let out a satisfied sigh when I just let him. He let a hand wander up and down on my back and tilted my head with the other so he could look me in the eyes. “So what did Trent mean that of course I had to be a singer since you were being you?”

“Oh that, just that it is sorta natural that my mate would be into music since I am.”

I smiled and brought up a hand to show him my fingers, wiggling them. He grabbed my hand and examined them closely, before pressing a soft kiss on each finger. I knew that wasn’t supposed be a turn on but damn all I could think about was how much I wanted to kiss those damn lips, to chase those precious freckles on his bottom lip with my tongue.

“The callouses,” His beautiful face lit up and his voice was filled with awe.  “You play! Why haven’t we talked about this before?”

“Yes I play.  Guitar and bass, and um, we were talking about all this wolf stuff I guess and doing this.”

I surged up to kiss him, to do exactly what I had been thinking about. Pressing him back onto the bed and chasing those damn freckles before thrusting my tongue into his mouth, he moaned and opened right up to me, kissing me back with the same dedication. Heat ran through me and my blood ran south. I let my hand wander over Adam’s body down his thighs and up again to cup his cock through his pants. He captured my hand and pulled it away before I got to the button. I groaned and bit down on his lip before ending the kiss.  Adam giggled sweetly and kissed me chastely. Making it very clear I wasn’t getting any right there.

“Those are good reasons. So do you want to play with me?”

Fuck him very much, cockblocking and talking! I threw myself backwards in frustration so I was lying next to him instead of sprawled all over him.

“Kinda thought I was!”

He rolled over and put a hand under his head looking at me with laughter in his ridiculously blue eyes.

“Dork. Right now we’re talking and I meant in the band.”

Still sulking I said. “Not sure I should.”


He was getting a little worried because I was still sulking so I decided to suck it up and be serious.

“Because Trent is right. It could end up leaving the pack alone for long periods of time, I heard that voice of yours, you’re going places Adam; you’re going to conquer the word.”

Adam is easy, well not easy in the terms of me getting what I want all the time. But easy in the terms of pleasing, it never takes much to make him smile or to make him feel loved and cared for. Small things make him shine so bright the sun should be jealous.

“Aww, but I want you by my side, always. I’m not going to leave you behind Tommy, I wouldn’t know how to.”

And apparently I’m a sappy fucker too, because those words made me warm and happy and released a bundle of butterflies in my stomach.

“I know, trust me, but the wolves are important too. A part of being a wolf is this bond between pack-members, I suppose it is stronger than the average family bond between humans and they’ll be in the same position as Mia’s pack if I’m not around.  Besides you haven’t heard me play.”

“Yeah that needs to change sometime today.” I got one of those challenging looks that said ‘don’t argue, it won’t work’ and damn it, it should have ticked me off, but instead I wanted to jump right up and get my guitar.

“Couldn’t your mom take care of the pack? She is already doing a damn good job of it now.”

“Naw, I don’t think it would work. The pack would have no problem with that, but the council might. Besides she is getting older and she deserves not to have to be at the top of her game all the time.”

“Yeah, but you have things like, I don’t know, beta’s right?  So maybe Mia could be the one? Once we figure out how to unite the packs and nobody would go after her or them when the pack is fifty wolves, would they??”

I thought about it for a while before answering.  Adam just waited patiently, giving me the time to consider it.

“No I don’t think anyone would dare. I just don’t see how we’re going to make that happen.  I can’t fight Mia.  Please don’t ever ask me to do that.”

Adam shook his head in agreement and changed the topic. “Did Mike really tell you to have patience or……?”

The pointed look combined with his scent was another precious gift, another piece of the puzzle. Adam hates not knowing everything that involves me.

“Yeah he did. I kinda thought it was about him and Mia because I think he’s seriously crushing on her. But he said it wasn’t, and said we just need to trust him. He can be a really smart sometimes and he is just a step further away from it all, so he isn’t caught up in all the emotions.”

I rolled my eyes to take the edge off the words, it worked because Adam laughed rich and melodic. Then he moved to straddle my hips and bent down, kissing me all soft and lazy and so fucking thorough that there was no doubt that he poured everything into that kiss. When he pulled back he let his thumb trail my lips.

“Are you admitting you love me too much to focus?”

I swallowed.  The mood had shifted from light and teasing to heavy and loaded in a split second. It was all there all the time, the lust, the love, the burning passion. It wasn’t like I didn’t feel it, or didn’t know he felt it too. We'd talked about what it would mean to be mates and talked about how to keep me and the packs out of the fire, but we hadn’t actually said it.

I guess the man in me was a whole lot more scared than the wolf was. Three stupidly small words compared to words like eternity and for life. But they were still somehow much harder to say. Adam searched my eyes and if it wasn’t for that strange power he has over me I would have looked away, done my best to hide from all this.

“Tommy? You do love me right? I know we just met and all but -” the insecurity he felt almost killed me and I remembered that he didn’t have the senses I did, he couldn’t smell the things I didn’t say. I could have kicked myself for being so dumb. This must have been so much harder on him. So I gave it all up for him, surrendered completely.

“I love you Adam. I love you so much that I have a hard time thinking about anything else but you.”

“Jesus Tommy.” Adam whispered.

He practically radiated happiness and there was an urgency in his eyes that mirrored mine perfectly when he came down to kiss me. There was a loud knock on the door. We both groaned loudly when Mia popped her head in.

“Hi guys. Can I come in?”

There is timing and there is bad timing and Mia is the fucking master of bad timing. I swear to all things unholy. “No.” I said.

But Adam laughed, put his head on my shoulder and said it was fine and Mia walked in all sunny and shit. She tilted her head and looked at me lying under Adam, mischief sparkling in her eyes.


“I would have been a whole lot comfier if you hadn’t interrupted.” I said and looked pointedly at the door, she just snickered.

“Aww, you’re not getting any?”

Damn her, I was seriously losing my patience. “I was about to, can this wait Mia? You’re kinda ruining something that was meant to be special.”

She just shook her head and pulled the chair from the corner closer to the bed.  She sat down, resting her elbows on her knees and locking gazes with me. I sent her a challenging look and she sent a mocking one right back but then it changed to concern.

“I just saw Trent out in the woods. He didn’t exactly look happy and when I asked if the pack had accepted Adam, he looked like he was going to snap and almost bit my head off. Why doesn’t he like Adam?”

Oh damn! Now she had my attention, and Adam’s too because he rolled off me and shoved himself up to a vertical position.

“Oh? So what did he say?” I asked, ignoring her question.

“Not much. I did get him to tell me the pack had accepted Adam and that's why I was sent for. I'm really happy for you.”

“Really?” Adam asked cautiously.

I reached out a hand to get pulled up too and he took it and somehow I ended up on his lap, not that I was complaining. Adam wasn't either because he put his arms around me and held me close. Mia smiled when I ran my nose up his jaw and nuzzled him.

“Do you want to keep doing that for the rest of your life?”

“I will, no matter what Mia, even if I get kicked out to be an outcast by the council. At least I’ll always have this.”

I looked up at Adam, who had a happy grin on his face.

“Yeah, so um about that, I’ve talked to my pack.”

We both turned our heads to stare at her, holding our breath because whatever she was about to say could be epic one way or the other.

“You talked to your pack?” Adam prompted.

“Yes, I did. And they want me to deliver their congratulations and their wishes for a happy future. They also said not to worry, that things would work out in the best way - the last part is purely Mike’s doing by the way.”

“Wow.” I whispered and Adam hugged me a little tighter.

“Yeah, I know right? So anyway I’ve talked to your mom and the three of us are going to meet with the council the day after tomorrow.”

I nodded thoughtfully, already getting my head in gear for that meeting, man, I was going to kick ass, when Adam asked, “But I thought Dia would go with us. Isn’t that for the best?”

My mind was still elsewhere when I answered automatically that Mia meant herself, Mom, and me. Adam tensed immediately and I could smell his possessiveness and his anger rise before he said another word.  “Then I guess we’ll be four at that meeting.”

“No baby, you have got to stay here, you’re not a wolf. You can’t be in the same room as our ruler.”

“Like hell I can't, I will not be left here like a disobedient child waiting for them to judge our future.”

I shifted so that I could cup his face and capture his eyes in my gaze.

“They’re not really judging yours but mine, no matter what you’re stuck with me.”

“They’re judging our lives Tommy, if you guys can’t convince them about the rightfulness of what you did, then they’ll take something of significant value from you. How isn’t that going to affect me?”

I understood what he meant, but this wasn’t something he could be a part of even if I wanted him to and for the first time my wolf didn’t want to give in to him. It didn’t want to be questioned on its ability to guard and protect.

I felt Mia tense when she recognized my wolf fighting to make his voice matter. She expected my tone but she still winced when I took a strong demanding hold of Adam's jaw and looked at him determinedly.

“I know what you’re saying Adam, but this is not up for debate. You have got to trust me, to trust my wolf. You’re staying here or wherever you want, but you’re not going with us. I can look out for myself and I got two strong pack voices with me and we’re bringing documented proof that this has been accepted before.”


“No, if you go you could jeopardize everything. I need you to trust me.”

I looked over at Mia waiting for her to back me up and she glanced at me quickly before telling Adam that I was right and that he needed to stay behind. He looked at me before hitting his head back into the wall behind him, the frustration so evident that my wolf almost took pity on him.

“Alright, but I don’t have to like it one bit!”

“No you don’t. You just have to accept it.” Mia said in a silky soft voice.

Adam just glared at her until she got of the chair and left us alone. When the door clicked shut behind her Adam turned to look at me, his anger barely buried under his feelings of inadequacy.  “I hate that I can’t be there for you.”

“You will be.” I took his hand and put it over my heart, “in here, giving me the strength and willpower to pull this off.”

chapter 10

Tags: adam lambert, adam/tommy, tommy joe ratliff, werewolves
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