Title: A Primal Right.
Word Count: ~58.000. This chapter 3.670
Pairing: Adam/Tommy (Werewolf).
Warnings: Sexual content, minor character death.
Disclaimers: The people you might recognize in here are NOT mine. I'm not making any profit, I'm only doing this for fun. There is no way this ever happened and so on. Oh…. And werewolves don’t exist either…. Sowry.
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Type: Werewolf AU. Romance with just enough angst to make it good.
A/N: This fic is written for my dear friend dkymekare because she loves wolves above.
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Summary: You know that feeling of being in control? Of knowing what happens next? You’ve got it all worked out, knows it’ll be hard work but worth it. You’re so focused on carefully laid plans that you kinda forgot about you…. but then something or someone comes along and changes everything. Suddenly you’re not even in charge of your own heart anymore. Yeah. That’s what happened to me.
Sit down and let me tell you a story… you might want to put your legs up and get comfortable, we’ll be here for a while.
It all began a day I was letting my wolf have some fun in the woods…
The next two days we spent getting to know more about each other. We took long walks in the woods with quiet conversations, about growing up and our lives in general. We spent hours in bed, sometimes desperate for the other one's touches or making love sweet and slow, and sometimes just making out like teens and whispering sweet nothings.
Adam also spent a lot of his time asking questions about being in a wolf pack, not just asking me but a lot of the other wolves too. It was like he craved knowledge. He learned a lot about the dynamics regarding how we greet each other. This meant he seemed to relax and not feel so possessive whenever someone touched me or kissed my cheek. But the others also seemed to pick up on how he felt and toned it down a little. I loved them all for that.
What was beyond amazing though, was how easily the wolves just accepted Adam, not one had questioned my actions or the nature of them, not one wasn’t happy for me, for us. And they already seemed to care a lot about him.
An example of that would be how soon Allison curled up beside him on the couch or Mike just laying a hand on his shoulder when he passed him on his way to the kitchen. Mom was perhaps the worst of them all, clearly he already owned her heart.
It all made me happy, but I couldn't help feeling like I was waiting for the other shoe to drop, that it was too damn good to actually be true. The nervous feeling grew stronger as the time for Trent’s arrival came closer and my wolf ached to deal the way it always did when stressed, to be free to run and go where its muzzle led.
I was sitting on the porch trying to calm the wolf when Adam sat down next to me. “So Jillian says you need to let your wolf out.” He said quietly, kissing me softly.
“Yeah, but I don’t want to leave you here by yourself.”
“What if I went with you?”
Oh I would have loved that but I didn’t want to run into Trent accidentally like that. “Um...”
“It’s okay if you don’t want me to, I can stay here.”
“It’s not that.”
“Then what is it?”
“Timing. He could be here any moment.”
“Oh. So you don’t wanna go at all?”
“I do, and maybe I should, I just don’t know.”
“Go then, I’ll stay with the others. Get out there and come back with a clear head.”
I got one of those looks from him that I already loved with an insane passion. The look that said ‘I love you, now do what I say, and trust that I’m right about this’. The really insane part was that my wolf seemed to love it as well.
I pulled my boots off, then my hoodie and handed it to Adam.
“You’re gonna strip right here?” He looked around and I smiled when I smelled the possessiveness strike again. I totally love that he doesn’t want to share me because I sure as hell didn't want to share him either.
“Yup, where else? Mom will kill me if I mess up the floor with dirty paws when I come home from the woods. If my clothes are out here when I get back then she'll be much happier.”
I unbuttoned my pants and started to wiggle out of them and handed them to Adam, his eyes turned darker and heated up. I laughed and desire spiked through me too.
“Hold on to that thought ‘til I get back okay?”
I flung myself at him for a two second hug and then I jumped the banister and changed right in front of Adam. His whispered “wow” followed me over the meadow and into the woods, the wolf joyful at being free to run.
I returned an hour later and I'd only reached the porch looking up at Adam who was waiting right where I left him, when a familiar and long-missed scent hit my nostrils. I hadn’t had the chance to change back and I slowly turned around searching the edge of the forest for him.
Mom must have caught his scent too because she came out, she sat down next to Adam and looked out after Trent too. “Go Tommy, maybe it is best it is just the two of you at first.”
“He’s here?” Adam asked and pushed off the bench. Mom put a hand on him leading him back onto it. Adam was following her gentle lead but every little part of him wanted to be between me and Trent, to keep me safe, to keep me his.
I whimpered and looked at Adam. Hating he couldn’t understand me in this form and wanting nothing more than to reassure him that he had nothing to worry about. I leaped up to him and nuzzled against his jawline and licked his neck. I could hear Trent, now in wolf form coming closer, waiting and watching. His mind was still closed off to me so I couldn't hear him.
Adam put his arms around me and hugged me tightly. Scratching my ears the way he did that first time in the clearing. “Should we wait here or do you want me to go with you?”
“Neither Adam. You stay here, Tommy goes.”
My mother’s voice left nothing up for debate but Adam still tried, “But Dia-”
Okay I’m going, just take care of him. Mom nodded. I looked at Adam one more time before leaving him behind to meet Trent for the first time in two years.
We met half way. Trent’s ears drawn back, head and shoulders low and tail down. Tommy, he whispered in my mind. We circled each other carefully but somehow it felt like something inside me was finally whole again. We both felt it, the wolf never forgets where it belongs and no matter what , we’re still in the same pack. Bound together.
I can’t believe you’re here. I missed you. I said truthfully.
Not enough to ask me to come home. He sounded bitter and I couldn’t blame him.
How could I? It wouldn’t have been fair. It would have been selfish.
I never gave up hoping.
My heart bled for him it really did. I’ll never stop caring about him for as long as I live and his words hurt me. I’m sorry.
I know you are, doesn’t make it easier.
You still feel that way?
Yeah, I do.
I swallowed hard, wishing there was a way I could somehow ease his pain. I wish…. This is going to sound stupid but I wish things could have been different that it could have been you.
But I wasn’t a chick… he sniffed the air surrounding me and I knew he was isolating Adam’s scent. Or him.
I didn’t choose this. It chose us.
I understand that and I accept it, doesn’t mean I have to love it, because I don’t. And you can’t force me to like him or care about him Tommy.
I know, and I will never ask anything else from you. But I need this from you. I need you to say it is okay and mean it.
Then go home, I’ll join you in a minute when I’ve changed, so we can get it over with. I don’t think I want to stick around too long.
Thank you, and I am sorry.
I know. I’ll live.
He glanced back at the porch where Adam was sitting so strung tight that he looked as if he was about to jump off the bench and run towards us any second. An evil glint sparked in Trent’s eyes and before I realized what the hell he was up to, he rubbed his head against mine in an intimate wolf greeting, much like we used to do, but this time it wasn’t for me. It was a provocation, and it was all for Adam.
We both heard Adam’s gasp and smelled the jealousy burn in him. I sighed and rolled my eyes at Trent and called him an idiot, he grinned wickedly and told me I was so very welcome. I turned to go home and fix things with Adam. Which didn’t take much, just a change back and a quietly whispered, “I got his accept!” and Adam was back to his sunny self.
An hour later when the rest of the wolves had welcomed Trent back home with great enthusiasm, mom asked the pack to gather in the living room because she needed to have a serious talk with all of us. Adam smiled at me and looped an arm around my shoulder and I melted into him, reveling in the closeness as we entered the living room.
Our pack consisted of 29 wolves and they were all there sitting on the couch or the floor, or leaning against various furniture. My mother was standing in the middle of the room, the center of our attention.
“Listen, I know you all heard the story when you came here, but it's important to me that everyone knows what this is about and knows about the possible consequences. I want to do this right.”
She looked at each and every single wolf before continuing. “I would like to welcome this young man,” she beckoned Adam over. Seeing as he wasn't about to let go of me, I followed tucked in by his side. A quick glance up at him confirmed the possessive vibe coming off him in waves. He was totally showing me off as his! Normally I wouldn’t have minded, but only a mere three feet away from mom was Trent, looking at me with a pained expression. It was telling and very clear why he'd left in the first place. I looked away and pulled out of Adam’s hold, lacing our fingers together instead, it would have to do at that moment.
“….Into our pack, he’s human. But of course you all know that. He is also Tommy’s destined mate. And even though things have not taken the proper turn of event by wolf-law the…"
Adam looked down at me with that look that said ‘what we have is so special that the rest of the world can’t possible know how much you mean to me’ and the world disappeared for a while. I tuned out my mother’s voice and all I saw and felt was Adam. Desire spiked through me but somehow Mike’s evil snicker wormed its way through the haze in my brain. I broke the eye-contact with Adam and flipped Mike off.
“….so with that I ask if there's anyone that feels like they need to share any concern towards this.”
Immediately Trent raised a hand. My heart dropped to my stomach and I felt Adam tense beside me.
“Yeah, so congrats or whatever. I got a couple of questions. Will Tommy mate,” he sighed and ground his teeth together, creating a whiny sound that made me shudder. "…mate with Adam before or after stepping up to the alpha role? And I’ve seemed to pick up that Adam is a singer, which of course he is, Tommy being Tommy, but that also means touring life. I want to know if it means leaving this pack without an alpha for months, assuming there's a place in the band for you.”
Trent looked straight at me and I swallowed, I hadn’t exactly found the time to tell Adam about what I did when I wasn’t busy being wolfish. We had spent much more time on growing up stuff and well, fooling around. Adam looked at me quizzically but must have decided to let it slide because he turned back to listen when Trent continued. “And I’m also concerned about Mia’s pack. How is this going to affect them?”
“Mia’s pack will be fine.” Mike said from the back of the room.
Trent raised an eyebrow. “You sure about that? Because last time I checked a female alpha is more lightly to be challenged for her position than a male. If she doesn’t team up with Tommy, it's only a matter of time before one of the other packs begins to pay interests to hers. If Tommy mates with Adam it leaves our friends vulnerable.
“Are you sure this is about our pack and Mia? Because it is pretty obvious you don’t seem happy about Adam being here.” Jillian asked softly.
She got a hard angry stare from Trent because of that comment but she just looked back and calmly waited for an answer.
“I’m not and obviously I have my reasons for that, but I’m not delusional. Wishing him gone doesn’t change anything for me, sadly. But we all know the reason Dia or Mia for that matter, at least until now, haven't had any other alphas around trying to claim territory here. It's because Tommy is strong and fast as fuck even though he doesn’t exactly look like it, and that in theory he could have been the leader for the last two years. The council would have accepted it had Dia wanted to step back when Ron died. But Mia doesn’t have a strong back up any more if Tommy mates Adam instead of her, because she was supposed to become one herself. I don’t want our friends to be screwed over by this.”
He looked around the room before his eyes landed on me. There was an apology in the way he shrugged his shoulder. I accepted it with a small shrug of my own. Adam glanced down at me before he directed those beautiful baby blues at Trent.
“Those are valid questions, Trent. I understand why you ask them.” Adam’s voice was clear and bright.
Trent looked at Adam with disbelief written all over his face. “Really?!”
“Yeah, I might not be wolf - yet. But, I would never leave my friends in a tough spot either. And since Mia and her pack are important to Tommy, then they are to me too.”
I stared at Adam, wondering like hell what he meant by ‘yet’. We hadn’t once talked about him turning wolf, Adam must have noticed even though he was looking at my mother, because he squeezed my hand and ran his thumb over my pulse point ever so slowly.
“Dia is it true? That Mia’s pack would be vulnerable? Does the pact made in the past hold that much power?” Adam asked.
“Yes, but Mia is much stronger than most give her credit for and she has been leading her pack for two years, not many of the alphas out there would be able to beat her.”
Adam nodded, storing the information and chewing on it for a second. “But there are some and they would if they knew they had a chance, is that what you’re saying?”
My mother nodded slowly and suddenly the room was buzzing with nervous energy. The only one that seemed perfectly calm was Mike. I looked at him and he just winked at me and tapped the side of his nose.
“Shit! So how do we solve that?” Adam asked wide eyed.
“Mike?” I said.
The rest of the people in the room turned to look at Mike, who just stood there, leaning against the wall looking like he didn’t have a care in the world.
“Well?” Trent said prompting Mike.
“I have a pretty good idea but it's too early to tell, it might screw things up if I do. But I really think Mia is going to be okay. We’re all going to be okay.”
Mike and my mother dearest shared one of those damn conspiratorial looks again before Mike looked back at me. I smirked at him, thinking back on what he'd said about Mia being open for someone else if she wasn’t committed to me anymore.
Soooo not about that dude! Even though I wouldn’t mind being a part of her life like that.
Okay, so I was back to being confused, then what the hell was that look about? Then what? I asked him.
I told you, it’s too early, just trust me okay?
I offered him a small nod and got another irritating as hell wink from him.
“Care to let the rest of us into that conversation? I think we all need a little reassuring here.” Trent said, and it wasn’t like he wasn’t telling the truth, because the nervous energy might have simmered down a bit but it was still there.
“I just asked Tommy for patience, but I think it might be a really bad idea for Tommy to claim the alpha role before mating with Adam and Adam turning wolf. And I do think we should ask to see the council before the next full moon.” That last part was directed at my mother who was already nodding along.
“Hmm, that might be pushing it, but I too, think it's important. I’ll try my best to make it happen. But first of all we need to know if you’re all supporting Tommy in this and then I need a word with Mia.”
Mike was the first to hug me and then Adam. “I’m with you all the way, no matter what, I’m with you. Welcome, Adam.”
Then Allison jumped me, almost using me as a jungle gym before latching on to Adam as if her life depended on it, but before she said she welcomed him, she asked him with twinkling eyes, what appeared to be her biggest concern. “Can I still sleep in his bed every once in a while??”
“Our bed! Yes, sweetie, you can.”
“Good. Then Adam, I soooooo welcome you!”
She smacked a loud kiss on his lips and made him laugh, a sound that was rich and delighted. A laugh very close to the one reserved only for me, in bed, when we fool around and things haven't gotten too serious yet. It instantly made me want.
The other wolves followed, not quite as enthusiastic, but not with any less feeling when saying it and I got all emotional and shit, because really?! That’s how much they love, that’s how much they value their family. Finally, only one was left to welcome Adam.
Trent sighed heavily before he approached Adam. “So, here we are,” he said in a low voice. There was a raw emotion I could hear in his voice that just broke my heart a little.
“Yeah.” Adam said, waiting politely.
I could feel his strength, his determination. The way he just knew that no matter what Trent said right there, that it wouldn’t change a thing for Adam. I belonged to him and that was the end of it. I know that Trent sensed it too, any wolf in the room could.
A sad, defeated and maybe even bitter smile tugged at the corner of Trent’s lips. “Don’t just love him. Make him happy.”
“I’ll do my best.”
They looked at each other for what seemed like forever in some sort of pissing contest, before Trent broke the deafening silence. “If you wrong him in any way, I swear.”
“You’ll hunt me down, yeah I get it.”
“You also get that it is about his happiness, not yours or mine. And that I’ll be in your face for the rest of my life from time to time.”
Trent reached out to take Adam’s hand and Adam extended his too. They shook hands and Trent said some of the most important words in my life, “Welcome Adam.”
He then turned to face me, he swallowed hard and I saw an unshed tear hiding in the corner of his eye. “Fuck Tommy, this is it. I finally have to let you go,” he whispered.
“Don’t say it, please don’t say it. I know. Just give me a hug and tell me I still matter to you.”
The air around me was filled with the heavy scent of Adam’s feelings about me. Pride, jealousy, love and pure possessiveness reeked off him. I shot Adam a nervous glance, asking for his permission before opening my arms to Trent. Adam sent me a small but confident smile so I took a step forward and wrapped my arms tightly around Trent; he hugged me back fiercely and buried his face in the crook of my neck.
“You do! You’ll always own a place in my heart. You are special to me and I wish you’d stay here, that you could be my friend again.”
“I’ll be here until I’m no longer needed. Then you have to let me go too. Please understand that Tommy.”
I withdrew from the hug and we looked each other in the eye before I silently agreed to that.
Trent walked out the door without looking back only stopping to let my mother know that he'd be in the woods until the wolf in him was ready to return.
I looked after him as he went out the door and I couldn't remember ever feeling this bad about hurting someone before. My wolf was so stressed about a pack member hurting that I physically ached. But at the same time, I was relieved that we got an accept and welcome from all of the pack members. I let out a strangled little noise.
Adam pulled me into his arms and calmed both the wolf and me. It was such a strange feeling, I guess only a mate can do that to a were, to satisfy both the wolf and the man. The living room emptied without me noticing it, I honestly can’t say how long we stood there Adam holding me together. But finally Adam said, “Let’s get out of here. I think we need to talk in private for a change.”