Title: It's Not The End Of The World
Beta: aislinntlc. Thank you sweetie for all your help, it is greatly appreciated!
Artwork: qafmaniac OMG bb, I love you so hard for this!!! And you know, for being you!
Word Count: 22.167 - 2845 This Chapter
Pairing: Tommy/OFC, Adam/Tommy Friendship.
Warnings: Adult Situations and Language
Rating: R - NC-17
Summary: Sometimes you find love the most impossible places. Sometimes life fucks with you, but then again sometimes you win.
Disclaimers: These people are NOT mine. Julia is my character, I created her. I'm not making any profit, I'm only doing this for fun. There is no way this ever happened and so on.
I had some really incredible cheerleaders on this fic – maggy_97who was the first to tell me that she wanted to read Adam/Tommy friendship fic! She kept telling me that she would read the fuck out of it, when I was sure no one would ever read it. So honey, this fic is for you! I hope you’ll like it! I know you’ve been waiting a long time for it.
And then there is zoodlemouse13 who in the most wonderful way demands that I write when I get too lazy or something. Because of them, and a few others, who encouraged me, this is finally ready to be posted. \o/
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A/N: If you're looking for an Adam/Tommy fic, this is not it. This fic is about being friends and Tommy finding love in an impossible situation.
After a couple of more weeks Adam starts to believe Tommy knows what he’s doing. He seems, not happy but getting there. He’s still there for Julia all the way. Nothing has changed there, but Adam still tries to make sure he’s the one Julia calls when she needs a friend and not Tommy. But sometimes he gets the feeling Julia doesn’t need a friend per se, but Tommy.
Sometimes Adam thinks he catches Jules looking at Tommy in that moon eyed in love kind of way but he’s not really sure because Jules has always looked at Tommy like he hung the moon. He wonders if he should just ask her if she is in love with Tommy, but somehow it never comes up, it never feels right.
After two months it feels like nothing ever happened, except for not needing to ask where John is. The divorce gets finalized in silence. Life moves on. Tommy asks Adam for nights out, not clubbing but just a beer in a bar with friends. It makes Adam happy.
A couple of more months go by and Adam feels like happiness sneaks up on them all. He throws a barbecue party again and Tommy surprises them all when he brings a date.
Adam is the first one to greet them. The woman is pretty in that girl next door kind of way, she has a brilliant smile and it sparks something in Adam’s memory. Tommy introduces her as Amelia.
“Oh, I remember we met some weeks ago in a shady city bar didn’t we?” Adam asks her.
Amelia looks up at Tommy who smiles widely, catching Adam’s joke right away.
“Yeah. We did,” she says.
Tommy hugs Adam and they kiss each other chastely on the lips before Tommy guides her around with a hand on the small of her back to meet everybody. Adam sees Julia come out of the kitchen chatting with Neil. She sees Tommy first because her eyes light up and that special smile, the one Adam secretly calls the Tommy-smile, makes her features softer. That is until she spots the woman and where Tommy’s hand is. Jules’s eyes go wide and Adam swears her eye color changes to a much colder kind of blue. And Adam is sort of happy that Tommy is moving in the other direction and can’t hear Julia when she hisses out a “What the fuck?”
“Hmm what?” Neil says, looking puzzled. Adam hurries over.
“He brought a date? Why would he do that?” She is not really talking to Neil, actually she is talking to Adam, who sees regret, jealousy and pain in her eyes.
Neil answers anyway; he hasn’t noticed the look Adam and Julia share. “Because he wants a relationship?” Neil tries. “Or you know it could be he needs some fooling around, you and Adam can’t really give him everything he needs.” Julia shoves the glasses she was getting from the kitchen into Neil’s hands and walks right past Adam. He grabs her arm and holds her back and drags her into a corner shielding them from nosy eyes. Neil follows.
Julia gives Adam a fiery look, “Just going to say hi.” Adam snorts.
“Obviously. But think before you do, be smart about this.”
“Smart? About Tommy?” Neil intervenes, looking much like the moon kicked him off and he landed on earth violently.
Adam and Julia don’t answer him but stare at each other. “If you really want him and this isn’t just a possessive ‘he is mine’ thing, then going over there to rip that poor girl’s head off sure as hell isn’t making your case. I don’t know how he did it. He recovered after that night with you, but don’t toy with him, Jules. He is finally after more than a year of hoping you’d fall in love with him too, moving on.”
“You slept with Tommy?”
“Shut up Neil.” Adam and Julia say in unison.
“I am in love with him. But I can’t seem to make him see that. For the last two months or so I’ve known for sure. I had a lot of things I needed to get straight about my feelings about him before-”
“Like what?” Adam asks, because how hard can it really be. She had said she didn’t love John for some time, said she loved Tommy and how he made her feel. So how much more was there to juggle with before coming to that conclusion?
“Like if I could stand on my own two legs and not be a needy little bitch. Like if I had all these feelings because of the best sex ever? Or if it’s just because it’s a good feeling to be loved without boundaries.” Adam thinks if the fire in her eye builds then she is going to spontaneously combust, he’s never seen her this fierce before.
“But perhaps the biggest issue was if I wanted to be with him because he already promised me what I thought I wanted the most, kids. Because you know what, Adam? If yes would have been the answer to just one of those questions then he would deserve much better than me and going after him would have been selfish. I already hurt him too much. I’m not ever going to do that again.”
The fire in her makes Adam’s heart melt. “Um, gotta ask this gurl, if kids aren’t what you want the most anymore, then what do you want the most?”
“Really Adam? Okay, then. Him! I’ve been hinting at him for two months now and nothing and now he shows up with a date.”
“Sorry baby, but A+++ answer.” Adam says at the exact same time Neil says. “Go rip the poor girls head off, maybe that’s the kind of hint he needs.”
Both Adam and Julia looks at him wide eyed. “What?” Neil says. “I’m just saying it sounds like Tommy has been doing a lot of giving here, maybe the man needs a hint with a crowbar because I sure as hell would. You can’t really blame the dude if he stopped believing it would ever happen.”
Adam shrugs, his brother made a good point, and knowing Tommy, Adam is pretty sure Julia isn’t too late anyway. He probably would wait for her his entire life, doing it the Johnny Cash way. That thought makes Adam gigglesnort out loud. “Don’t rip her head off but go get your man, use all your girly flirty tricks on him and seduce the fuck out of him or something like that. Go compete for him.”
“Thanks Adam.” She hugs him and runs off to say hi to Tommy.
“So Jules and Tommy, huh?” Neil says snickering.
“Tommy and Jules!”
“Yeah.” Adam hopes for awesome.
Tommy is talking to Scarlett when he feels a too familiar female body press against his back. Two small hands cover his eyes. Julia’s scent and warmth embraces him and as always it hits him in his heart. Before she has a chance to say anything he says, “Well hello there stranger, did you miss me?” He expects her to release him so he can turn around and give her the usual hug and kiss hello, but she instead she does what she did to Neil that very first time Tommy met her. She bites his earlobe gently and giggles. Her breath tickles and lust hits him so hard it makes him gasp.
“Yes I did.” She whispers in his ear before letting go of him.
He trembles and curses her in his mind, lately her flirting has increased and it’s getting harder and harder to deal with. He even caught himself thinking it would be a relief when she finally starts dating again. It hurts that she doesn’t think about what it does to him, but on the other hand he knows he’s a sucker for self-torment because he basks in her attention every freaking time. He’s a dumbass, a dumbass in love. And he knows it. Anyway that’s why he thought it was time to try and date again.
She hugs him tightly, the way she always does and tilts her face up expecting a kiss. He stares at her lips and thinks. No, not this time. So he pecks her cheek and his heart clenches when he sees her disappointment. He didn’t mean to offend her; he was just looking out for himself. Her little hide and seek game threw him off.
“Gonna introduce me to your date?” She asks and Tommy thinks her voice is a little too sugary to suit her.
“Sure, this is Amelia.” He makes a move with his hand towards the Amelia, “Amelia, this is Julia.” The girls shake hands and exchanges courtesies. Scarlett hands over Riff to Tommy and he cuddles him, he fucking loves that child. He looks at Julia over Riff’s head and the gaze of longing he sees messes with him.
“You know you just gotta say the word. You don’t need John to be a mother.” He says quietly.
“I know my love, but a kid needs a daddy too, or maybe it’s the mother that needs a man, so she won’t smother the poor kid.” She winks at him and sends Amelia a telling glance. “And it looks like you’ve got other plans.”
Riff reaches out to Julia and Tommy hands him over. Scarlett laughs. “That’s actually true.” Tommy has no idea what to say. Julia fucking knows he would be there every step of the way.
The day is one of the most confusing ones Tommy has ever lived through. Julia isn’t obviously rude to his date, but it’s pretty damn clear to him she doesn’t approve, and she flirts shamelessly all day, touching him every damn chance she gets. And it’s not just the usual cuddly things that are a part of how they are together. And Adam seems to be watching him all the damn time, looking amused when he squirms away from her. Adam of all people should know what it does to him.
When Julia’s hand glides a little too far up his thigh for it to feel good, well it feels good, too good to be comfortable actually, he loses it.
He jumps off the chair and topples a glass of red wine in the process. He doesn’t bother with cleaning it up or even apologizing, though. He glares at Julia. “What the hell Jules? Kitchen now! You and me are gonna talk.” Julia fucking looks like the cat that got the milk and Neil of all people looks at his brother and snickers. Adam looks at Julia getting off her chair and says, “Be smart about this, Jules.” What is wrong with them? Tommy thinks he is so going to tell Adam a thing or two when he is done with Julia. When he stomps off with Julia in tow he hears Amelia asking, “So I guess there is something unfinished there, am I right?” He doesn’t hear if someone answers her. He doesn’t really care either.
He is going for the kitchen, that’s where they’re going to sort this out, he shuts the door and releases his hold on Julia.
Frustrated, he runs a hand through his hair. Julia crowds his personal space when she puts her arms around his waist. He takes a hold of her hands and pushes her away. “What the hell is wrong with you? You gotta stop doing this Jules. I told you I couldn’t be that guy for you. You’re hurting me.” He knows he sounds like a tired old soul but he figures it’s better than biting her head off.
“Tommy,” Julia tries.
Tommy knows he has reached his breaking point, if this doesn’t stop then he has to let go and see what life without her in it looks like. He can’t keep doing this to himself. “No, you gotta listen to me. I get that you probably feel lonely or horny, or whatever. But I wasn’t lying that day. You’re killing me here. You gotta stop doing that.”
Julia smiles and reaches out for him again. “I’m-”
Tommy backs away until he feels the edge of the kitchen counter and glares at her when she steps closer. “The last couple of months have been torture. This flirting thing that seems to be our default mode? It has got to stop. I mean it.”
She moves closer and he can’t really back away, seems like he should have paid attention before he backed himself into a corner. Julia puts a hand on both sides of him, keeping him trapped. “Well boo hoo.” she says. “They haven’t exactly been fun for me either because you won’t accept what’s right in front of you.”
“What?” He is absolutely sure he misunderstood her because there is no way that could mean what he wants it to. He is not getting his hopes up only to be shut down. Julia moves even closer, close enough that their thighs are touching. She moves one of her hands from the counter and for a split second self-preservation makes him wonder if he can scoot away, but then she touches his face, runs her fingers along his forehead down his cheek and tucks a lock of his hair behind his ear. The touch is so careful and loving and the way she looks at him while she does it keeps him hostage.
“Tommy, baby,” she says softly and his heart races, stubbornly beating its way out of his chest. “You-” she stops and sighs heavily. “I love you.”
Tommy feels like a horse kicked him in the chest, they’ve been here before. “I love you too, that’s why I can’t-”
She shakes her head vigorously. “No, I. Love. You. I want to be with you, I’ve tried to get that into your thick skull for what feels like ages now.”
“You?” Damn his brain, it’s fried. It’s stuck on ‘be with you’. This is not happening; this is like the cruelest joke ever.
“I’m in love with you. You still want me don’t you?” Her hands sneak up and around his neck.
“Jules,” he warns and puts his hands up to free himself, halfway panicking. Not trusting this one little bit.
“Oh no don’t you dare go getting all scared on me,” she says and keeps him in place with her body and soft blue eyes that see right through him. Her fingers play with the hair on the nape of his neck and he has to fight to control the urge to shiver.
She caresses his neck with a thumb and asks, “Are you in love with me?”
He closes his eyes and feels her forehead touch his. “You know I am,” he whispers and keeps his eyes closed.
She kisses him softly. He can’t help it, he kisses back and there is something in that kiss that flips things for him. It’s more tender, more loving and a lot less casual, even though there is no tongue involved, than their other kisses, it reminds him of their kisses that morning.
“So let’s get old together,” she whispers against his lips, “do dishes and laundry together. Buy rocking chairs and a porch to sit on. I want it all with you.”
“Really? You want that?” he asks between kisses that get deeper by the second.
“More than anything.”
Pure and blissful happiness fills him. He leans back and catches her gaze. The love he sees reflected makes every hurtful step of the way right and worth it. “I’m gonna make you happy, I promise I’m gonna do my best to make you happy.”
She beams back at him; the sun would be envious of her shine when she purrs, “You already do. Keep kissing me, I think I might have an addiction.”
And Tommy does, he keeps kissing her until the kisses turn dirtier and they are startled by a semi loud noise by the door. Panting they pull away from each other and share a look of embarrassment and laughter when they realize that someone is standing outside eavesdropping.
Adam’s voice filters through the door, though he is whispering, “Oh my God you ass, do you have to ruin everything?”
Tommy is just about to let Adam know they know he’s there when Julia covers his mouth with a hand. She puts a finger on her mouth and he nods. She moves her hand away from his mouth and uses her hands to show him they should tip toe over to the door and yank it open and say boo.
Tommy has to fight the laughter. How the fuck did he get so lucky in life? He has awesome friends that love him, apparently enough to eavesdrop by the door, which they’re going to regret in a minute, a loving family, the best job in the world and the most beautiful, evil and wonderful woman in the universe loves him back.
Life is freaking awesome.